Devils and Angels...Which one's haunt you?

So i've totally convinced myself that there is some strange power(s) at work out to get me, wether it be for the good or bad of me. Already I feel weak everyday, drawing power out of my anger and hate, wishing I could be happier again. Memorial weekend from Thursday to Monday morning (memorial day) in Haskell, Oklahoma. I couldnt ever think I could love life like I did, those 5 days being there. I was in an open country, I was surrounded by nature and at night when I looked up at the stars, I could see forever, it seemed. The stars danced around my head and the milkly way seemed to just glow abright. It was truly a sign I believe and now comes the decision to either give up on my life I live now, and start a new or just keep hiding from the inner me. Staples has it easy with thier damn 'Easy Button' and a little recorded voice replies, 'That was easy!' well its not so easy you see.....at least not for someone who is scared as I am. Utah haunts me with devils and Oklahoma tempts me with Angels